Sadness

Sometimes I feel really sad.

I wonder why my husband married me somedays. He can be bloody vile when he feels like it, esp saying awful things esp thinking that he is being funny.

Our Miss 9 always talks about what she is going to do for her next birthday. It's really sweet and I don't mind that she talks about it, I love that she has ideas and can be creative in her thinking. I hate how my husband will poo poo the idea, I hate how when I call him on it he makes me feel inadequate. I think it is great that the kids can be creative in their thinking, the girls are always thinking of new ways that they can make their lives happy and I don't have a problem with that, we are the adults so we make the ultimate decisions but it is ok to incorporate some of their ideas to.

Bahhh what a complete load of crap and I hate feeling resentful of my husband but man he makes me mad.

Oh well tomorrow is another day

Until next time.